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Reflection

Reflection Mama Pyjama

I was wandering the streets of Fremantle with a bucket of paella in my hand, people-watching, and enjoying the rarity of a morning to myself when I got the call from my Dad that there was a fire in Stoneville.  “That’s about 3 minutes from my house dad…I’m an hour away…I don’t think there’s anything I can do”. 

I got in my car anyway and drove for what seemed forever, listening to the AM radio for updates and trying to get a call through to my neighbours.  My kids were safe, my husband was safe, but my two dogs were locked inside the house.

By the time I got there my street was blocked off and there was smoke everywhere.  Between my husband and I we managed to get hold of our neighbours, who were thankfully (for us) home when the fire hit.  In the seconds they had before leaving, they smashed a window at our place and rescued our dogs.  Two great big (smelly and sometimes perceived as scary) dogs.  That took guts.  That took humanity.  That was an act of pure selflessness, and one I’m eternally grateful for. 

In the hours and days that followed I learned and gained many things.  I witnessed community and humanity at its greatest.  We forged a friendship with our neighbours (albeit several years too late);  I’m quietly kicking myself for not having shared more drinks over the fence with these fun and generous story tellers!  I learned what gratitude truly feels like.  I experienced a feeling of weightlessness when I realised that at no point in the whole drama had I really concerned myself with the idea of losing our house and everything in it.  I was yet again reminded of the strength of the heart strings that link child to parent.  I had no concern other than for the displacement and anxiety that my sons (particularly my eldest) were experiencing, emphasised by the knowledge of just how close we were to having that displacement extend several months if not years if our house had not been spared. 

This was how my 2014 began.  Some would say that’s a terrible start to a year…for me it was the beginning of a year of awareness, gratitude and awakening.   

Here are some key moments from my 2014:

A hospital emergency trip for each of my boys – one via an ambulance.   With these experiences came gratitude for the health care system we have in Australia.  Gratitude for a husband that sat all night in the world’s most uncomfortable chair so that he could be there for his boy every second of the way;  and the second time ‘round for him riding in the ambulance with our 2 year old strapped to his chest, lying flat on his back as our son struggled to breathe. 

Concerts, a trip to Rotto, many an opportunity for fancy dress and other creative experiences.  I am grateful for friendships – some as old as Beverley Hills 90210, and some new.  I’m thankful for people in my life who love me for who I was, who I am and who I am becoming.

My eldest began Kindy and my baby is now a fully-fledged chatterbox.  It really hit home this year how important it is to appreciate what you have at any given moment because children grow so quickly, and the world changes at such a rapid rate.

Time with my husband.  I am grateful for family that have allowed me to spend some quality time with my husband (who FYI has lost 20 kilos this year! Talk about being proud of him!).  We’ve had some nights out in town touring the small bars and enjoying the luxury (and quiet) of a hotel room.  On the relationship front, it’s been a year of communication, reconnection and awareness.

Awakening my spirituality.  2014 has been a spiritual journey (for want of a better expression) for me.  I’ve stepped way out of my comfort zone, and pushed myself to learn more about who I am in order to accept myself fully.  I’ve done yoga nidra, a workshop on mediumship and sound healing.  I also sang in a choir at my workplace and have written my first song.  I’ve been learning more about chakra healing and raising our vibrations.  In short, I feel much more alive this year and I think that comes from allowing myself to look “silly”, to be uncomfortable and to try new and scary things.

Moving house.  We packed up our storybook cottage and moved to a beautiful home on 10 acres.  I’ll be honest and tell you that it was tough on my relationship! Big decisions and events in life are great opportunities to increase your awareness of your own complexities and of those around you – and this was one such opportunity!  The move has been worth every second of…let’s call it head butting and snappiness.  Our home is very quickly becoming our sanctuary and I am so grateful.

Bruce.  Springsteen.  Held.  My.  Hand.     Enough said.

Refocusing my career.  Those of you who have been following for a while now will have gotten a sense that I’m not entirely content within my current career.  I’ve been working hard this year to refocus and redirect my career down a path that better aligns with who I am (and who I continue to become).  As 2014 draws to a close I await two decisions – one for a new role that I applied for at work in a much more creative and innovative space, the other for a blogging opportunity with Brownes Dairy.  To say I’m excited about the opportunities that await me is an understatement.

And then there’s Mama Pyjama.  In between all this I’ve been talking to you guys, sharing a bit of my life with you, learning a little more about all of your’s in the process, and working with some really cool companies.  I got to interview a Disney Star…I mean seriously, less than two years ago I would have never envisaged that.  It’s been a blast.

I do so hope that you have also had a fantastic 2014…even if it involved some trials and tribulations.  Afterall it is often adversity that is our greatest motivator.  Every event in our life offers its own unique teaching or opportunity.  It is up to us to uncover it, to listen to it, to accept it and to act on it. 

I look forward to painting my future with all of you in it.  Remember, if we believe it to be true, it is true.  If we believe it to be real, it is real. 

So get imagining the future you want to see yourself in ‘cause I’ll be asking you very soon to share it with me (and the universe). 

Many blessings, and may your 2015 be truly wonderful! xo

Dreams

"You may say I'm a dreamer..."

"You may say I'm a dreamer..."

In the spirit of the New Year, I wanted to talk a little about dreams and goals and the journey of their pursuit.   A year or so ago I had very few aspirations (and by very few I mean like probably one – “to get through the day”.  That may be a little dramatic, but you get my point).  Today I have so many things I want to do, see, live, breathe, and experience.  I have big dreams, big desires and big passions.  But the fact is the logistics of my life haven’t changed at the same rate as my mindset.  I’m still working the same job, still paying the same mortgage, and I still have all the same commitments as before.  Sometimes it gets hard to see how I can make it work.  How I can hold onto these dreams, when I need both my hands to hold onto my family’s wellbeing, my home, my ‘career’…

I want so much to “throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in (my) sails”…but when you have a family, the decision to do so is no longer yours alone.  I’m not saying that’s a bad thing, but it’s the reality.  I would love to quit my job – love to, but it’s not something I’m prepared to do without having a fairly solid idea of what I would do next. 

 “Great ideas need landing gear as well as wings.”  ~ C.D. Jackson

I’m not a patient person.  In most areas of my life I throw myself in head first and play by the motto of "sink or swim".  But in matters of the family, I am different.  Things need to be planned, considered, weighed up and secured before I will take a plunge.  I’ve had to remind myself that delaying a step along the journey towards my dreams, and taking the time to plan my next move doesn’t mean that I’m failing, it just means that I’m increasing the chances of successfully reaching my destination.

“A goal without a plan is just a wish.”  ~ Antoine De Saint Exupery

Sometimes we hit hurdles along the way, and if you’re anything like me, impatience can get the better of us.  I know in my heart that I haven’t lost sight of my dreams and I know that I will get there, but I get frustrated with the time it takes.  I’ve set the wheels in motion, they are turning, but sometimes they just don’t seem to be turning fast enough!   It can be hard to accept that progress is still progress even if it is slow. 

“No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn't trying.”  ~ Tony Robbins

There will be moments along your journey when it all starts to seem too hard.  At times, pursuing your dreams can be somewhat underwhelming!  This can quickly result in a sense of defeat…and a question as to whether it’s even ‘worth’ doing anymore.  It’s super hard to keep going when the result isn’t six weeks into the future.  It is perhaps apt to remind ourselves at these points, that it is as much about the evolution and growth of your personal self along the journey to your dreams, as it is the actual realisation of the dream itself.  The strength, patience and wisdom that comes from rising: to meet our challenges; to step over those hurdles; and to continue to crawl when you can no longer walk, is just as valuable and life changing.

“What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals.”  ~ Zig Ziglar

It takes a real solid, committed effort to keep pushing forward.  It’s a daily battle to keep your sub-conscious mind in check.  You know, the one that tells you you’re wasting your time, you’re a dreamer, you haven’t got a hope in hell.   But you know what?  Sarah Ban Breathnach said it best when she said, “The world needs dreamers and the world needs doers.  But above all, the world needs dreamers who do.”  So keep fighting the fight, keep rising above the negative voices and keep pushing forward with your pursuit.  Write things down and read them over and over again.  Listen to things that inspire you, take in the daily quotes, focus on what made you start this journey in the first place.

And every morning when you wake, ask yourself this one question:

“How am I going to live today in order to create the tomorrow I'm committed to?”  ~Anthony Robbins